so sip and sit and laugh alone, no one will enter my life i've locked the home.

while every hour drifts into days, i stay put right here watching the months fade away.

i'm lost, all alone and it's my own fault.

people think i dont care but its just an act i put on to hide from you.

i had a greedy sister who never learned how to share, continues to laugh, think, smile and be happy.

none of it to works on my insides, they continue to hurt.

i keep hearing of diseases but they havent even found a cure.

is this satans way of scaring me and getting to me or am i being warned from someone good who wants the best for me?

who on this earth wants the best?

we all would love to see someone get crushed and taken over so we then can pick them up to make ourselves feel better.

but we all die alone, so why does any person matter...

oh to love one another to be compatible maybe?

or is it just insecurity?

to feel that someone else cares for you as much as you do for them but you always find out theres always another him.

your in a competition you have to fight to stay up, you dont have a choice here its fit in or die trying...

so why'd they tell us to be ourselves growing up?

in this world, if you all followed that, this entire place would be a mental home...

no one knows what you do alone in your room.

you wouldnt ever tell anyone anyway.

so continue what you do be happy.

we all have different views, but why are we all surrounded with a shell?

i've broken out of it, i'm sitting in the pieces and i love it.

i'm not perfect at all, i just chose a different path.

so you try to stop young girls from getting raped?

how, with posted ads to watch out for big scary men?

instead, go to their home and you'll see the mother and daughter look exactly the same with the prada purse and shes sexually insane.

why would she give a shit about her daughter when shes so fucked up she doesnt even know what matters?

think stupid green paper can make her happy?

thats pretty weird, how does it do that?

do you stick it in your asshole?

to make yourself the big dog and just stand out.

shallow people in a deeper world of hate and desire, people burning on fire blood streaming through this time its all gone and where will you be going when your time is done...no where?

before you were created where did you come from?

and why are you chosen to be here now during this period of time?

you think you can comprehend it all thats impossible when you only know a fraction.

so i talk talk talk no one to talk to but thats alright i dont want to.

it'd be really nice though to show that you really care.

i try to say it but it seems you dont believe a breath of air.

you only get half of this. some of you will understand.

sit on the edge of irony, its my favorite land...

so steal her away like im not watching.

i'll give her up pretend like im not wanting.

im waiting for a time to come where that person will show up but i highly doubt this thought.